And Now We're Older...

Lately I've been feeling a bit nostalgic about my life. A friend of mine is graduating college in countless months and its really weird to realize I only have two more semesters left at Puget Sound. Then I have to go into the "real world". I wish I could stay in school forever. This made me think of high school. How everyone thinks its the worst thing in the world but I would give anything to go back. Being able to see your best friends every day, and even people you didn't really care for. Well, now I realize I took that for granted. People drift apart and you realize who your true friends are. This post is about people who have made a large impact on my life. 

In high school, you think the world is going to end when you aren't able to go hang out with your friends at McDonalds on a friday night because thats where all the "cool" people are. Obviously. I miss when driving around was something fun to do. Being reckless, young, and crazy. I still have a little bit of that in me when I go home. I actually love being from a small town. Most people hate it but maybe its just because I am a country girl at heart and I love the feeling of knowing people you pass on the street. 


One thing I truly miss about being in Enumclaw is people wait for you as you cross the street. Even here crossing the parking lot on a crosswalk can be dangerous. I always feel like I'm going to get hit by a car. I miss those people who are so friendly when you walk by. Being able to walk from place to place just is so wonderful to me. I'm not saying I want to live in Enumclaw my whole life because I don't think I could handle that. But living nearby and coming home to this wonderful place is just truly peaceful. 

Safeway is one of the places I feel most nostalgic, surprisingly. I love walking in there and saying hi to old friends and coworkers. I love being asked what I'm doing with my life. Even though I have no idea what my future holds and that is the scary part. But thats for another time. There is just something so fulfilling being able to walk around the store and know exactly what faces I will see. For all the hatred I have toward Safeway as a company, I really do love it because I made some wonderful friendships there that I still cherish today. First of all, I met Monica there who is now like my big sister. I've never had a sister before but I feel like she loves me unconditionally. She understands me like only a few people do. She understands all my flaws and pushes me to strive my best. And this usually is for one subject, boys. I can't go very long without telling Monica anything about my love life...if there is anything to tell. First of all, because I can't hold in anything for very long. Even if I tell myself I'm not going to tell anyone...I can't help it. If it's someone else's secret then thats different. I guess that's why this blog is helpful so I don't gush my secrets to people who I don't want to know. Anyways...secondly, apparently one time I forgot to tell Monica I was going to the movies with someone and she freaked out and almost fell over. She also almost made Billy go deaf with her high pitched screams. Thank god I was sitting across the huge table in the break room so I wouldn't be hurt. Through Monica we have made our little possy. I've met many wonderful people through her and I'm truly grateful to have her in my life.



Now, high school. I just don't know if I can fit all my thoughts to this place in one paragraph so stay with me. I came to Enumclaw High School expected just to survive three years since I transferred my sophomore year. It's a small town and I figured people wouldn't let me into their friend groups. I had the same friends, or at least gone to the same school with people, since I was in preschool and now it was all changing. I wasn't expecting to make friends the first week of school. Friends that I still have to this day. I made many memories during my three years there. All the car rides, concerts, football games, lunches, and so much more. Some things I regret. But regret is such a strong word. Even though after high school some of my very best friends became ex-best friends and good friends turned into boyfriends turned into most hated person on this planet. I wouldn't change a thing. All of these events made me see who my true friends are. When graduation started creeping closer, my mom said to me that I won't stay friends with many of the people I was friends with. As much as I wanted her to be wrong, I can't help but say she was right. It's strange the people you grow closer to and the people who drift apart. I guess everything happens for a reason, but I am more than thrilled with the people who ended up in my life. I have people who I can tell everything to. Rachael and I are constantly texting each other. More than anyone I know. It's like we're in a relationship...we might even text more than that. Even the most random things I just think to myself, I have to tell Rachael. And she just understands me, like no one else really does. She acts crazy with me. We can have fun doing anything. I can just lay on her bed and we can talk for hours. We can spend hours on the phone talking about nothing and ending up laughing so hard. We just get each other and thats how best friends should be. You shouldn't have to hold anything back with a best friend. Recently thats how I've been feeling with some people in my life. Not like we're not friends anymore, just that we are drifting apart. Maybe thats the way it should be. There are more important things in their lives that they don't include many people in. I guess in high school the only priorities you had were what was happening on Friday night.



Who knows what the future holds. I know my life long dream as a country music singer might be a no-go. I hope to be a successful business woman. Hopefully near my family, or else I'll need to marry rich so I can come see my friends and family all the time. I hope wherever I go, I take those I've loved along the way. 

This song explains life, love, and moving on. It is one of my favorite songs of all time.